Even Though

Have you ever prayed and asked, "Lord, why did You create me?" We know that we were all created for a purpose that only we can fulfill, but we also were created for one overall purpose. Isaiah 43:7 says that HE created us for HIS glory. I was put on this earth to glorify and magnify my Creator.

A few years ago, we were surprised to find out that we were expecting our third child. I was excited until the ultrasound proved something was wrong. I was disappointed and in denial. I prayed and truly believed that my next ultrasound would be perfect and that the doctor had made a mistake...but it wasn't...and she hadn't. It was obvious that I would soon have a miscarriage, I was heartbroken and confused. This is something that many women experience, but we rarely talk about it. It pierces a woman's heart to know that the life within her will not survive. It is so incredibly painful because we quickly become attached to him or her.

In my time of pain and weakness, God faithfully spoke truth to my spirit... "Nothing is impossible for Me, I can fix and change anything, but when I do not, please know there is a divine purpose and I am still God."

From that point on, I was determined to glorify Him, even in my pain and heartache and even though my emotions were up and down. He gave me strength to channel all those emotions and heartache towards one single purpose alone.....to glorify God.

During this time, the Lord also gave me a heart for women who have experienced this loss. We can try to sympathize with the pain of others, but until we truly experience that pain, we can never process what they have endured. One sweet woman of God was there to comfort me proving 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 to be true "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

On the day of my surgery....the day I would walk away with an emptiness I've never known, I had a choice. I could become bitter towards the Creator of life or I could choose to glorify Him even though my heart was torn.

When I woke up from surgery, the nurse was telling me how sorry she was and that she too had experienced the loss of a baby. The Lord gave me strength to share with her the word He placed in my heart. I shared with her that she was not alone and how much Jesus loves her.  He was glorified even though in that moment it would have been easy to fall into a pit of sorrow. He gave me strength to share Him with someone who needed to know Him and His love for her.

I have seen God give others the supernatural power and strength to lay aside their own emotions and desires to glorify Him even though their hearts were breaking. In our weakness, His strength is truly made perfect. He gives hope to the hopeless, freedom to the prisoner, strength to the weak, joy to the sorrowful, and comfort to those who mourn.

I love the beautiful words of Habakkuk in chapter 3:17-19

"Even though the fig trees have no blossoms,
    and there are no grapes on the vines;
even though the olive crop fails,
    and the fields lie empty and barren;
even though the flocks die in the fields,
    and the cattle barns are empty,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord!
    I will be joyful in the God of my salvation!
The Sovereign Lord is my strength!
    He makes me as surefooted as a deer,
    able to tread upon the heights."

"Yet"...such a small word, but what a big difference it makes.
Through all of the "Even thoughs" of this life may we say......"YET I will rejoice in the Lord!"

There is a song that says "Through fire and rain, this one thing remains, I can say God is good, even when He's not understood. If He gives or He takes, His love will never change, He's given me the proof." The link to this truth filled song is below.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=e3MtuB7HRD0